Hi Hunnie 8/23/08  / Sami (Cousin/Best Friend )

Hey Lil cousin,

   How is it hanging up there? I hope good. Did you get to meet up with Aunt Marlene & Carl. I cant believe its been almost 4 yrs since you left. Is Josh taking care of you? Nevermind I know he is. I miss you to so much. When people see your and Josh's pic on my computer they always say they are cute boys. Then they ask me what happen & everytime I cry telling them how I couldnt save you and Josh. Why didnt you guys listen to me when I told you to put your seatbelts on before you left? Why did I have to be the first one there? Why did I have to tell our families? Why am I always having to be that brick that hold this family together because everyone only cares about themselves & not being there for the other parts of the family that were also affected by your death.? CJ please help me keep my strenght & my will to keep this family together.

 

So anyways last night Jackie,Steph,Liz and I went out for Jackie's birthday. We went to hardrock to start off...went to spirits (that was boring)...went to passions (and that was boring too)...went to Round Up and had a blast. I saw so many people I knew there. Wanted to fight some girl (but I didnt). And guess who found me on the dance floor......Chad W.......he was so funny...he came up to me on the dance floor & said "I think I know you"...(lol)...I looked but I didnt recoqnise him off the bat. Then he said Chad & I went crazy. OMG, CJ....he has grown up so much. I couldnt believe that I saw him.  Then we both started to talk about how we missed the old time when you him & I would hang out. He wants to meet Derek..He met Paul last night (bc Paul was at the Round Up) I introduced him as my brother (bc he is just like my brother)...Well kid thanks for watching over all of us last night so that we didnt get hurt or into TROUBLE....

 I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! xoxoxox

Sami

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Today would have been 4 years for Millett & you  / Mom 08/14/08
I wish you were not taken from us.  You and Millett would still have been together.  We could have celebrated your anniversary together.  But I just wish that you could help out Millett.  She needs to find that true love again, just like she had with you.  Maybe you could come back to her again.  She is such a wonderful person and deserves to be loved and to be taken care of.

I know that is what you would have wanted.  Please find the right person for her.

We love you and her so much.  Please look out for her.

Love, MOM

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would you believe that the verification code has your name in it.
This must be fate.  Now you have to find someone for Millett.

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Aug 14.2008  / Millett
4 years today since we met. I was the happiest person in the world. I tried so hard to be strong but even still today i miss you more than ever. Help me with all this thats happening right now i cant be depressed and sad like this. its bad enough everythings going to shit right now. please help. I just want to be happy again. i love you so much i cant believe this happened to you. Close

Please Welcome Carl Cadle  / Mom 08/08/08 (I love you )
Carl left us on 07/28/08, Monday.  He had a brain anurism, which is a blood vessel that breaks in the brain.  He was a 2nd father to me as I was growing up.  Him and Beaulah were at all activities that we always had.

Please welcome him in with you.

We love and miss you so much.

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Happy 10th Birthday Matthew  / Mom 07/21/08
Your brother turned 10 today.  We missed you there.  We were up at Grandma Reiser's and just cooked chicken on the grill and had a small birthday cake for Matthew.  He got gifts of PSP game, skates, heelys, PS2 game, gifts from the fantasy of flight museum in Polk City.  They were from Grandma & pa McKinney  we had a great time.  We miss you so very much.  Holiday and events are so hard without you here.  Love always and forever.  MOM Close

Hey 7/12/08  / Sami (best friend/sister )
Hey Little Bro,

So I know I have not written in a couple of weeks,but the whole stress of the wedding/honeymoon/back to work stuff really got me. The wedding was amazing everyone had fun/no one fought..just amazing. I hope you & josh like dance derek & i did with your moms in memory of you guys + the candle. you know i couldnt have my wedding & not include you guys some how.i hope you had a good time there. i wish you wuold of been there physically but i know you where there. Thank you for helping Aunt Marlene hold out just a little longer then the wedding/honeymoon. Please take care of her up there with you. I want to also thank you for protecting me yesterday in my accident. well i dont know what else to say right now bc i am starting to cry again (like always)...i miss you tons. xoxox...love you!!!!

xoxoxo sami jo
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Please Welcome Aunt Marlene  / Mom 07/06/08
Well you did what I asked and I am so grateful.  You were able to help Aunt Marlene to hang on until after Samantha and Derek's Wedding.

We lost her on the 4th of July.  We got the call around 9pm.  Just in time for the fireworks to be going off around town. 

You are wonderful and we love you so much.  Wishing you were here to talk to instead of typing to you.  Love you lots.

Thanks for allowing Sami and Derek to have a good honeymoon. 

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HAPPY INDEPENDANCE DAY  / MOM 07/04/08
We are missing you so much.  Wishing you were here to watch the fireworks.  I know you can see them from above but I am wishing they were with us here on the ground.

We miss you so much.  Love always and forever.  MOM Close

Happy Birthday Ashlie  / Mom 06/30/08

Happy 24th Birthday Ashlie!!!!!

We love you and hope you have a great day...

Love Aunt Bonnie, Uncle Charles, CJ & Matthew

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They are Mr. & Mrs.  / Mom 06/29/08

Congratulations Sami & Derek !!!!!

 

You are now Mr. & Mrs. Derek Rogers.  We, including CJ are so very proud of both of you.  You both looked wonderful.  I am adding a picture on the site.  Thank you so much for the wonderful dance it just brought CJ and Josh to the Wedding and we love you so much for it.

Love always and forever

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Happy Wedding Day  / Mom 06/28/08
To Derek and Sami,
    We love you so very much and are very happy that you are a part of our family.  I am very sure that CJ and Josh will be watching from Heaven and having a tear or two for both of you.  They will be beside us at your wedding and wishing you both a Happy and Healthy marriage.
    I wish the both of you as much happiness that Charles and I have had together in our 21 years of marriage and a total of 27 years together.

Love forever and ever...From CJ, Matthew, Uncle Charles and
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AUNT BONNIE READ THIS FOR MYSPACE  / JACKIE (FRIEND)

http://www.myspace.com/memoryofcjnjosh

HERE IT IS AUNT BONNIE IM SORRY I LOVE U

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My Space Page  / Mom 06/24/08

Does anyone know how to get to CJ's my space page?  I would like to see the page if anyone can put the link on this webpage.

Thanks so much.....

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Hey there  / Mom 06/24/08

Well keep trying.  Those people you sent us, backed out of buying the house.  They didn't have enough credit or their credit was not good enough.  They backed out before they were denied for the loan. 

Those other people that came by, maybe you could put a push on them.

Anyways, We love you so much here.  Miss you lots.

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Time is a precious thing....  / Mom 06/20/08
Hey there my sweet son, I love you with all my heart and soul.

I need a really big favor from you. Aunt Marlene is going down hill with her health and I need you to try to help her hold on for a little while longer, just to get past Sami's wedding date.

You see Aunt Marlene went to the doctors in April after Sami's bridal shower and found out that she had cancer in her lung. She started Chemo-therapy and Radiation. In May after Sami's other Shower Aunt Marlene found out that she has the cancer in both lungs now. And the worst part about it is that today, a week before Sami's wedding, we just found out that Aunt Marlene's cancer has spread again to her throat. They are talking about putting her in Hospice.

I am writing to you to help your cousin Sami, to be strong. Can you try to find Marty up there and ask him to be by his mother's side and help her to try to hang in there for atleast another week and a couple of days. Just to get past Sami's wedding. Maybe you can get Sami to show her Aunt Marlene her wedding dress. The picture of her trying it on in the bridal store.

Keep an eye on Sami, she is going to need evey ounce of strength that we can give her. You were taken from us at Christmas and Aunt Marlene to be taken from her around her wedding is alot for her to handle.

PLEASE HELP, WE LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH. MOM....
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Thank you Millett  / Mom 06/17/08

Thanks so much for keeping this site for me.  It helps so much you have no idea.  I want to say thanks for keeping the different scenes up and changing it around once in a while.

I wish that his friends would just write Hello on the site, just to let me know that they were on.  I have heard that so many read everything on here but never write anything down.

Please just say Hello, that is all I am asking, so that I know his friends are still thinking of him.  I still need the reassurance after his 4 birthdays have passed.

 

Thank you all for loving my son as much as I do.

Bonnie (MOM)

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Happy 44th Birthday, Daddy  / Mom 06/16/08

CJ, I know if you were here you would be with us to celebrate your Birthday with your fathers.

We are having a cake that Matthew and I made for you and Daddy.  We will sing to both of you.  Love forever and ever.

 

Love MOM

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21 years Old  / Mom 06/17/08

You finally made it.  Today you are 21.  You have caught up with your older cousins.  I hope that you get to have a drink for your Birthday up there. I wish with all my heart and soul that you are OK.  Your father, brother and I wish that you could be here for your Birthday with your father.

Daddy turned 44 yesterday and you 21 today.  We miss you so much.  I will take up to the site your Balloons and so flowers to put around the pole.  I hope you like it.  I also got you a small shot glass so that you can have your drink.  I will leave you a beer mug penndent there for you as well. 

Daddy misses you so much.  He hates so much when your birthday come around.

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to my sweet baby boy.  Happy Birthday to you.

I Love you more than my fingers can type. Thank you for being in our lives, we love and miss you so much.

LOVE MOM

 

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TMRW  / MILLETT (I LOVE YOU )

I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA I THINK OF YOU EVERYDAY AND HOW IN HOPES WE STILL WOULD HAVE BEEN TOGETHER. I WOULDNT HAVE SCREWED UP IN HIGH SCHOOL YOUD BE IN THE COAST GUARD AND ID BE IN COLLEGE WE WOULD BE RIGHT BEHIND SAMI AND DERRICK GETTING MARRIED I HAVE NEVER LOVED SOMEONE SO MUCH YOU MADE MY LIFE SO AMAZING YOU HAVE NO IDEA. YOU WERE SO GOOD TO ME BESIDES THAT ONE MISTAKE AND I BELIVE IT WAS A MISTAKE AND YOU LOVED ME TO. WE WERE KIDS THEN AND WE WOULD HAVE GROWN TO BE GREAT ADULTS TOGETHER AND I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO SAY WE WERE HIGH SCHOOL SWEETHEARTS LIKE YOUR PARENTS. I HOPE THAT WHEN I HAVE A SON ONE DAY YOU WILL GUIDE HIM TO THROUGH LIFES STRUGGLES AS YOU ARE DOING WITH MATTHEW. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CJAY I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.

 

LOVE ALWAYS

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HAPPY 21 BIRTHDAY- JUNE 17,20008  / Sami (COUSIN)

Hey kid,

 so you are finally 21.if that was you in the picture with grandpa & i..i am glad you were there. we all really miss you. i love you so much...just wanted to stop by & say happy birthday..if i write anymore i am going to start crying because i miss you soo much..i cant even explain it. i wish you were here for my wedding...you were such a big person in my life & i wanted you to share this day with me. i lov eyou so much. i will have a drink for you! xooxoxox

your sister sami

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